The Bandersnatch Lair

Bionx Bandersnatch. 18. I am an outrageous person. Live in Chicago, Illinois all my life. Chicago is better than New York and California Combined, just saying. I love Vans. I don't skate or longboard, I BMX. I love body modifications. Hope to get more in the future. I love music, especially electronic metalcore, but I listen to everything. Music is music. Huge Beatles fan as well. I tend not to care, only caring about the things and people that matter. I celebrate uniqueness and kindness to others. If you want to know anything ask, I'm open minded.

Like papers.. I want to throw my life up in the air and say, ”Fuck it.” And walk away.

Imagine if Tumblr never existed..

How many lives that would’ve been taken. In my opinion, Tumblr is the rarest from of media that is positive. Its the users on this site that make Tumblr what it is. I strongly believe that Tumblr has saved countless lives. Including mine. I can’t help but thank you all.

Looks don’t tell you a damn thing about a person.. they don’t tell you if they’re a whore, or taken, or single.. If they’re stuck up, rich, poor.. If they take a ton of drugs or if they’re a goody two shoes.. Man, looks can’t tell you a damn thing. I’m sick of people judging people intentionally this way.. Good or bad. The only way you can really know a person is getting to know them, giving them a chance. There is more to a person than how they look, you can’t just automatically KNOW a person’s story by just looking at them.. Know what you’re talking about before you go around being an asshole to the world.

Would anyone cared if I was gone? I can’t take it anymore. I’m on the edge. I feel so unloved, so broken, and cold. Just.. I can’t be strong for people anymore when I can’t even be strong for myself. I don’t know what to do, I just want to die.. 

I have hopes.. but expect the worst.

My Life On A Page, Word.

Anne Frank once said, “I want to go on living even after my death!” I want to be one of those people who do the little things for others that mean nothing to me, but are extraordinary to others. I want my name remembered someday.

They said “Freak,” and I believed them. I wish I said at the time, “Your wrong! I’m more than what you lable me!” Maybe then I would’ve been even more stronger than I am today.

I’m than just a girl confused why she is what she is, get to know me; there’s so much to me than what you see in front of you.

I told him I loved him, and to please stop drinking. He never listened to me. No i’m hurting here, knowing he’s 6 feet under.

I hope you know Christena, you saved my ass countless times, has been there for me through the thick and the thin. You were right, my place is here.

Desiri, Iraq never needed you, I did. Please come home safe.

I’ve learned God was never there, he was always there.

I feel like we’re all defined at my age by: age, weight, and SAT’s.

I met my best friend online, now i’m heading to Arizona to meet his ass.

I never understood these 4 things: math, life, time, and you.

My kitty stole my heart, God has her now, I miss her.

I was only popular in summer camp, thanks NWSRA for making my childhood brighter.

I learned who my real friends are, only got 3 who are for real.

An image expresses me, when words cannot.

I used to hate substance abusers, now I struggle to recover as one.

Eating is harder than it looks, I know because these jeans that once fit snuggly, are now baggy.

I was taught to be racist, to keep my race pure, I wonder to myself, “Am I really all that pure?”

I’ve only saw 2 shooting stars in my life, both times I was with a person who no longer remain on this Earth. I find it funnny how life works out.

4 days away from home and I come home obessed over England. It only took one person to do that, and an unending search to find him again.

My grandfather used to play The Beatles in his truck when he’d pick me up from school. He said one day we’ll go see one of them live. I went to go see Paul McCartney live a couple months ago, alone. Smoking to my grandfather away from me.

This is me, yo.

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